Time to start living

I'm ready for colors, excitement; I want to feel like I'm traveling through the Milky Way filled with thousands of stars, swirls of colors and glitter. I want it to be a surreal, an extraterrestrial experience. Spring Break is finally here and I want to spend every moment of it traveling to places created by my own imagination where time doesn't exist and the possibilities are infinite and boundless. I'm going to utilize every moment of Spring Break by doing whatever I want which means eating whatever whenever I want, getting as less sleep as possible, reading until my eyes burn and ache, dancing, drinking, singing, and most importantly laughing.

Sometimes I feel like I can't contain myself and my impulsive urges to just do something completely not like me. I want to be able to just take off, in the middle of the night and just go somewhere beautiful, just drive away from everything I'm use to and familiar with. There's just so much to see and experience and I just want to go out there and witness them all. I guess basically I want to start living, I want to be able to do what I love without having to think of the consequences.

I think it's about time to stop being safe all the time and just take chances. I think I'm ready to let loose and just be myself. I want to do whatever my heart desires and deal with the consequences later because at this point I just don't really care anymore. I realized that analyzing every action or decision you make is no way to live life and experience all it has to offer.

The light at the end of the tunnel

Once again Prom is just around the corner and I really don't feel like spending 300 dollars in order to have fun. But the dress shopping part of the whole scenario is a different story; it's just way too tempting to say no. So far the three candidates I have for Prom are 1) a best friend who I've known since freshman year 2) a slightly annoying but super friendly guy who I've only gotten to know recently 3) and last but not least a guy who I've been interested in but is sadly a complete pothead. Tell you the truth I wouldn't want to go to Prom with any of them but what other choice do I have. I guess desperate times calls for desperate measures; I'm going to have to search for my super short-shorts which I haven't worn in years and bust out my good old conversational/flirtation skills. God I have a feeling that this is going to end badly.

It's funny actually to see people around school frantically searching for a Prom date. My friend went as far as making an announcement in front of class that she had absolutely no Prom date and would offer to pay for whoever would take her. Lets just hope that begging doesn't become a option for me as well.

Since Spring Break is just a couple days away, I decided to plan a much needed trip to San Fransisco just to get away from LA and it's oh so polluted and stuffy atmosphere. I need a change of surrounding and I think San Fransisco is the perfect place to take a much needed break.

Oh after my numerous mopey blog entries I decided that things aren't as bad as they seem. I was complaining in my earlier entries about colleges but I realized that everything isn't as bad as it seems. I'm going to a four year university with friends and family close by and if transferring becomes an option, I'm going to work my ass off for the first two years and then transfer to my dream school. I believe that being able to live in American is a blessing in itself and that unlike many other countries, it is extremely forgiving, meaning that there are always plenty of opportunities to pursue your goals even after many failed attempts.

Yay! It's time to end this on a positive note for once.